Trapik sa Cubao-Ilalim

pokpok talaga? 

anu naman kinalaman ko sa pagchupa !?

 at mga bumubukol?!

Tama na ok?

Sailor Saturn (Silence Glaive ang power na gumunaw ng planeta, bonggacious)

OK. Nakakailang Doomsday predictions na ang kung sinu sinong kemerut baka naman pwede na tumigil sa mga kung anu anong anik anik?

Nakakainis. Magbabayad pa rin pala ako ng Meralco? Char.

At least walang zombies di ba?

I'll know it when I see it

“Maybe love stays. Maybe love can’t. 

Maybe love shouldn’t. 

Maybe love arrives exactly when love is supposed to. And love leaves when love must. When love arrives, say, ‘Welcome. Make yourself comfortable’. 

If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her, 

turn off the music, listen to the quiet, whisper, 

‘Thank you for stopping by.’”

The Best Greeting

 

Donut was my first puppy in my life. He was given to me as a gift for I was so eager to have someone waiting for me at home. The garden eventually withered and died. Plants seem nice but can never be affectionate. Donut died from the Parvo virus after 2 months, it was far too late when we took him to the vet. On my birthday, I received multiple greetings online and through text.  What truly left an impression was when I woke up crying because I dreamed of my puppy and we played fetch and cuddled again.

Thank you for stopping by little friend.

Socio-Economic Issues in my head

Post for a purpose. Char!

ito yung mga bagay/problems na naiisip ko pero I can't seem to find a solution just yet.

Alam nyo ba na ang pagkain na hindi naubos sa mga hotel and restaurant buffets ay itinatapon lamang pagkatapus? Araw araw ilang grocery carts ng ingredients ang ginagamit para maihanda ito pero sa katapusan ng araw, ang hindi nakain itatapon lamang?

Hindi pwedeng iuwi ng mga empleyado ang pagkain.
Hindi rin pwedeng ipamigay na lamang sa mga shelter etc. Ayaw makasuhan ng establishment kung sakali man sumakit ang tiyan nila dahil sa pagkain.

SAYANG.

Pero siguro ako, pag tumira ako sa kalsada alam ko na hindi ako magugutom, alam ko kung saan ako pupunta :)

Napakaraming janitor fish na itinapon na lang sa Marikina River at dumadami sila at kasinlaki ng pusa at aso dahil wala naman kumakain sa kanila? Wala na mabuhay na ibang isda o halaman sa tubig. Hindi naman sila makain dahil makapal ang balat at balita ko, mapanghi ang amuy ng laman.

ANU ANG PWEDENG GAWIN SA KANILA?

Tuwing may kalamidad, marami ang nag iipon at nag oorganize ng relief operations. Kaso, hindi naman sila systematic? Nagkakanya kanya din ng distribution.

PAANO NAMAN YUNG MGA TAO NA HINDI MADALING MAABOT?

Yung mga malalapit, sila lang yung sagana sa supplies, pero yung ibang hindi madaling mapuntahan sila yung walang makain.

SANA MAY SISTEMA PAANO DISTRIBUTION NG RELIEF.

becks goes to...

Beks VS Zombies

(habang nanunuod ng zombie movie)

Munchkin: pag naging zombie ba ako babarilin moko?

Seth: eh kung subukan mo akong kagatin eh di dead tayu pareho? saka di na ikaw yun...

Munchkin: eh kung di kita bite, keep mo na lang ako as pet?

Seth: *kilig* eh anu naman papakain ko sayu? ayy ang tanung pala... sino! 

*insert evil laugh* >:)

Galit

Sigurado akong magkakasundo ang karamihan ng mga taong tunay na nakakakilala sa akin ngayun na sadyang meron akong "angas" kahit saan ako pumunta. Hindi naman ito yung tipo na mapapa away ako sa kanto pero ito yung masyado akong confident ba sa gusto kong sabihin o gawin at lalong ayaw ko magpalampas ng mga bagay na hindi ko gusto o maintindihan. May maririnig at maririnig ka sa akin.

Ang hindi alam ng karamihan, marami akong karanasan, lalo na sa trabaho na dahil hindi ko nagawan ng paraan noon, sobrang sama ng loob ko at nag aapoy sa galit hanggang ngayun dahil hindi ko nagawan ng hustisya ng aking sarili. Umaabot  minsan sa punto na binabangungot na ako. 

Minsan akong nagtrabaho sa isang start up company sa Fort Bonifacio. Medical  account kaya naging interesado ako. Hindi naman naging mahirap sa akin ang exam at interviews. Alam ko ang gusto kong sabihin. Nagbihis at naghanda yata ako? Alam ko kung saan akong pamantasan nanggaling.

Ang trabaho ko noon ay isang "night coordinator". Sa States kasi, lahat ng pasyente may scans o xray. Kailangan ng isang radiologist upang basahin ang mga images at gumawa ng impression. Ngunit sa gabi, kung saan kulang na ang mga tao, pinapadala dito sa Pilipinas ang mga scans, binabasa ng Pinoy na Radiologist, pinipirmahan ng Amerikanong doktor. Ang trabaho ko ay mag confirm na natanggap namin ang scans, makumpleto ito, at masigurong makararating at matatanggap agad sa lalong madaling panahon ang impressions lalo na pag emergency ang pasyente.

red line = mediastinum
blue circle = CPR area

Matapus ang isang buwan ng training, mukha naman maganda ang kinabukasan ng kumpanya, akin lang yata ang hindi? Sa isang start up company na walang matatag na proseso at batas, madalas ang mga bagay ay nagiging arbitrary o basehan na lang sa iniisip na tama ng iba o kahit akala lang nila. Lahat gustong umangat at magpasikat at mapansin. Dahil dito sadyang magulo.

Nauna lamang ng 3 buwan sa akin si Danae, dahil dito, senior ko na siya at shadowing namin noon. Importante na i-report agad lalo na ang mga bleeding sa chest area, lalo na sa mediastinum. 

Minsan sa isang shift:

Seth: "... hairline fracture at the sternum, anterior mediastinum,..." ... Danae, irereport ko ba ito?"

Danae: (binasa ang impression) "may nakikita ka bang sinabing bleeding?"

Seth: "wala"

Danae: "so hindi"

Hindi pa siya nakuntento, nagpadala pa sa akin ng definition ng mediastinum sa chat. Duh. UST yata ako alam ko kung ano an mediastinum? Pero naisip ba niya na dito nga ginagawa ang CPR? Isang tao na tutukod at pupuwersa sa buto na ito kaya sadyang matibay siya.Kung magkaron man ng fracture dito, aasahan kong may bleeding, di ba? Pero tumahimik lang ako.

Matapos ang ilang minuto, nagkaroon ng revision ang radiologist. May bleeding na sa impression. Huli na. Napahiya na ako dahil meron akong common sense.

Marami pang naging maliliit na ganitong eksena na nagkapatung patong hanggang umabot sa punto na hinanapan na lang nila ako ng butas para tanggalin sa kumpanya. Pumasok na lang ako isang araw, ayaw na gumana ng access ko, pinatawag ako sa HR, binasahan ng evaluation, FAILED, binigyan ng huling sahod ko, at pinasulat na lamang ng resignation letter.

Masama ang loob ko.

Hindi pa sila nakuntento doon. Dalawang linggo mula nung ako'y pinaalis. Nagkaroon ng reklamo mula sa isang doktor na aming cliente. Paano ko nalaman? Nabubuksan ang email namin kahit sa labas ng opisina. Magkakaiba man ang account namin, iisa lang ang password. Matalino di ba? Dun ko nalaman na Biyernes pa lang, sinabi na sa lahat na tanggal na ako. Ako na lamang nagulat pagpasok ko.

Ang sabi ng cliente, "ang nakausap daw niyang isang night coordinator na hindi mahusay uminggles at bumigkas na mas matalino pa ang anak niyang hayskul". Hindi na nagkaroon pa ng imbestigasyon, agad na sumagot na lamang si Danae ng "paumanhin, ngunit ang taong tinutukoy ay wala na sa kumpanya".

P&%$#@$#$ !!!!!!!

At ako pa ang napiling sumalo ng sisi. Wala na naman nga ako doon, hindi ko na naman malalaman di ba? 

Halos magtatatlong taon na mula nung umalis ako sa kumpanyang iyon. Nandiyan pa rin sila. Yung iba nasa Amerika na. 

Pero ang kinaiinisan ko pa rin ay kung paanong hindi ko naipagtanggol ang sarili ko at lalong wala na akong magagawa ngayun.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko bibitiwan ang galit ko. Paano ba ako makakaganti. Huli na din naman ang lahat.

Ngayun ko lang siya naalalang isulat, baka sakali, sa paraang ito, mailabas ko na ang nararamdaman ko, at baka sakali....

mapatawad ko sila.

Oryt. Foin

Sige na nga.
Magsusulat na ako this weekend. ^^

Nobody said it was easy

Not too many people appreciate my work as QA. Well, those who are caught doing violations that is. 


How do I strike a balance to really loving what I do but gaining the respect of the community as well?

Old me

"Hey. tara sex trip tayu"






Kaloka.


Inannounce ko na long before na may BF ako that time at tigilan na nila ako pero mukhang hindi naman yata nila binura number ko?


Oh well.






I'm different now. I look different that is.








I'm fat and fabulous! LOL

Archived Chat: Kyle

panalo ang blog mo
sexual experimebts


LOL hahahaha
at least di naman erotica di ba?
wala namang tabloidal entries
nag deviate from celibacy kuno LOL 


haaaaaayy
Ben Cinco
i need to get him out of my head


ADIK ADIK ADIK !!! Andami naman chinito jan


pero iba si Ben Cinco eh


next time i see him, what can i do for you a s afavor?


gayumahin
ahahaha


akin na LOL


nope
ill give you gayuma
or better yet pabugbog yung current niya


ilalagay ko sa lahat ng drinking station sa FF pati soda machine at coffeemaker para wala siyang lusot


ahhaa
tapos lahat hahabulin ako
hahhaha


eh di ikaw na maganda LOL


hahhaa
sana kung cute lahat


or better yet, gawa ka ng volatile version, para sa AC system ko na lang ilalagay.... baka buong megamall naman ang magayuma


HAHAH!
kung ganoon
sa rockwell na lang
para mayaman ang target market ko


or serendra


hmm
sa sererndra may mga nakakalusot na DE Market


uso pa ba serendra? di naman kasi ako masyado napapasyal dun


hmmmmm
di na
ang uso ngayon
ano bsa
ano ba
wala na
ahahaha


greenbelt?


ahahha


lagot ka pag nagleak yan sa palawan 1&2 cubao pati starlights LOL


3:03pm
HAHAH eeeww


IKR


i mean he is literally working a few floors below me
nalipat siya ng office


oooooh
so pag nacorner mo siya sa elevator.... pAKKK!


im praying na kaming dalawa lang
tapos mawalang ng power yung elevator


ahahahaha
if that were me. kahit may power i'd pull the red lever para may moment sa elevator and for the cctv recording to witness LOL


tsk tsk


hmf. ako pa wild ngayun? hihi. im sure you'd like it 


not really
i want our deed for our eyes only ahah


IKAW NA!
kaya dapat may ready kanng gayuma bomb


ahaha


lways have it in yer purse hihi


correction
satchel


di ko kinaya. akala ko pang horses lang yun. ching!


ahaha

Oh boy

Last year, iba ang priority ko sa buhay. Kailangan SEXY ako sa Boracay. Kaya naman proud na proud pa akong ipakita ang resulta ang efforts ko. 

Witness Evolution.

But right now is a TOTALLY different story. 

I'm only comfortable with a size 38 waist.

OMG.

If it's not broke. Don't fix it

This used to be my favorite McDo branch of all, because I feel nostalgic whenever I visit it.

but even good things come to an end

Good News. Bad News. Can't decide.

2005. Graduated, licensed, trained for additional skills as a Licensed Professional Nurse


Same year. Sought help from Agency who promised Masteral Education + Employment


Fast Forward 2011. I'm still here. Had to resend credentials to CGFNS. Retake IELTS.


April 26, 2012. Agency pressing to sign another contract. Priority date nearing.


No bedside nursing experience. The new contract didn't have the schooling benefit.


Backed out.


Have to start from scratch.


Now I don't have to leave the country. 


But I feel like I just wasted 6 years of lies with them.

QA

After months of hardwork

I finally got promoted.

Now to start phase 2:

Gym

French

Kitid

Fine. Saksak nyo sa baga nyo.
UP lang ba state university?
Di ba ang sablay ay "for nationalism"?
Exclusive?

Come again?

There are more than two sides of a story.

My thoughts:

1. Put more than a thousand people in one place + sponsors/vendors = TRASH. I don't have to be in a running event to expect that. I'm sure when the EDSA revolution was held (several times) there was the same predicament.
2. Not all of them are "nature lovers" they would've planted a tree instead or cleaned up a portion of the city. Don't we have marathons almost every single week and for every time there is a monetary humanitarian reason to do so. It's like the new "bar" to be seen. 
3. Why the running fad became so popularly expensive I do not know. The roads have been there ever since. No need for some fancy shirt even.
4. Hydration is important. Paper cups might be more practical. I hope they just placed trash bins strategically. Water bottles? Nah. I'm sure it'll be uncomfortable running with a jug. Doesn't look good on the photovendo too. People stopping for a refill would only consume more minutes in their stats. 
5. Douse runners with a water pump? Sounds fun AND sexy. Haha! But wouldn't that cause water spoilage and slippery roads won't be safe. 
6. Smoky mountain and Payatas for venues? I don't think that'll be sanitary or safe. 
7. So you really wanna be an Earth hero by running? Do that daily on your way to school or work.   

Alam na

Nakow. Di yan pwedeng mauso ditey! WIT WIT WIT!

Mabubuking LAHAT ng sisterette!

Dear Papa Paulo

Noong una hindi naman kita mapapansin dahil sadyang pretty boy ka lang. Yung tipong hambait bait mong tingnan pag nagsmile, parang ganito:

Not until nakita ko ang Bench ad mo at saka nalaglag ang brief ko muling nakilala ang linyang "naughty and nice"...

Akala ko pa nga, to the rescue pa eksena mo sa CDO?

Look alike lang pala. Pwede na rin. Char! Kaya nga nung nakita kong ikaw ang cover boy ng Garage Mag, hindi na ako kumain ng lunch maiuwi ka lang...

Pero as I flipped through the pages...

Bakit wala naman yatang cuts o abs?




P.S.


Tapus na Holy Week, pero like Doubting Thomas, maniniwala akong hindi airbrush o Photoshop lang ito pag nahimas nakita na kita in person






XOXO


Seth

Spout

In yet another pointless conversation with JM:


"Happy naman ako dahil meron na rin akong Starbuckzzz tumbler which is in fantabulously colorific furfle.

Pero may isa akong problema: Hirap na hirap akong uminom sa kanya na hindi ako matatapunan! Seriously! Ang effort talaga ng finess na kailangan kong ipunin para lang makainum nang maayus."


JM, happens to have this wide array of collection of mugs and tumblers from Starbucks, which were either he bought, gifts, or nenok. Yes, nenok, isa lang naman pero nenok nonetheless. At proud pa siya. Since then, plain white na lang ang mugs sa SB Eastwood and everywhere else. LOL


Minsang nakita ko collection niya. Magkakaiba ang spout. At sa lahat, ito ang naging most comfortable para sa akin:

"Ganito lang naman kasi yan... *dinedemo ang pag inum* simple lang naman bakit hindi mo magawa?"

Seth: "Look at this!? Mukha siyang gilid ng baso but it's not! Ang layu nung mismong butas to where I place my lip. Ang tendency tuloy I wrap my lips on the whole thing kaya tuloy parang sinubo ko na 25% nung takip para lang hindi na siya tatapon? Isa pa, double barrel siya, in as much as naappreciate ko yung control ng condensation at di ako mapapaso etc, hindi ko maramdaman yung flow ng fluid kaya di ko matantiya? Kailangan ko pang i-tilt nang mataas tuloy, thus, more tapon. Di ba spill proof nga dapat!


*hinga*


Pero ito, ito! Mas ok ito sa akin palagay ko. Simple lang ang spout niya at kahit hindi ako nakatingin o nag iingat sigurado ako walang tatapon dahil nasa loob na siya ng bibig ko. Gets mo?
















JM: *sigh* "Kawawa ka naman."




------------------------------------------------------------ Anyway... I'm starting my own collection. At dito ko gustong simulan! harharhar :)

pinkaloo ^^

Digital Lapida

Kulang pa rin siguro sa gasgas ang "health is wealth". Kamakailan lang, nabalitaan na lang namin sa opisina na ang pagkamatay ng training supervisor dahil sa surgical complications. Sayang. Hindi man lang siya umabot sa 40s? 


Hindi naman kami super close, pero in a way, idol ko siya. Paano, puro na lang siya designer items mula ulo hanggang paa? Perry Ellis na shirt, Cavalli jeans, LV belt, Bulgari jewelry, Prada shoes, Birkin bag, Philip Stein watch, at of course di papahuli ang gadgets na iPads (yes 2 sila), Macbook, iPhones (oo, ikr), at BB Torch.


Kung kukwentahin siguro lahat ng dala niya sa isang araw, lalampas siguro ng bahagya ng 1M. Imagine. Pangarap pa raw niya bumili ng isang Porsche before the end of the year. IKAW NA TALAGA !!!


Pero... nasaan na siya ngayun? Huling beses na nakita ko siya, sobrang payat, dry skin, wala na siyang boses halos. Wala rin nagawa ang pera niya?


Kasalukuyan akong naglilinis ng inbox, saka ko napansin na huling usap namin sa FB chat eh January pa. Hindi na rin mabuksan ang profile niya. Last time I checked napuno ng mga dedication at pictures etc ang wall niya. Kung meron man akong natutunan sa pagbabasa ko, sa "Tuesdays with Morrie" mas gusto ko na marinig yung mga magagandang eulogy habang buhay pa ako? 


Pero teka, anu ba talaga ang big deal sa akin???


Wala na yung profile niya.


"Bakit kailangan madelete yung profile?", tanung ko. "Malalaman ba ng FB na, hmmm, mejo matagal na huling login mo? Bibigyan ka ba niya ng ultimatum na on or before _____ pag di ka nagsign in goodbye na sa profile mo?".


Nakita ng friend ko kung gaano ako kaapektado.


JM: "Eh patay na nga siya di ba? FB is a social networking site. Paano ka naman makipag socialize kung patay ka na?"


Seth: "Eh yun nga ang issue ko eh?! Bakit nila binura? Paano na yung social factor?"


JM: *Awkward silence. Taas isang kilay*


Naweirduhan yata sa akin. Social factor sa patay. Ang scary di ba?


Seth: "Paano na yung pictures niya? Yung tagged photos? Yung friends niya? Paano kung di naman sila close at magkakakilala? How are they going to grieve together and share stuff about the person if they removed the only link which is the profile?!"


Wala na nasabi si JM. Masama akong kadebate pag hysterical? LOLs


Siguro ayaw ko lang patayin yung memories. Yung kahit kailan, kung gugustuhin ko, pwede ko pang balikan at tingnan ulit kapag ready na ako. 


You don't own the memories yourself. 


Rest in Peace Benj and to my puppy Donut :'(

Just No.

I won't be entertaining invitations to gatherings.

I won't be giving out my mobile number to anybody.

I won't be adding people on Facebook/Twitter.

Relationships are messy.

Let's keep it writer-reader only ok?

New tongue

One of the main reasons why I wish to get promoted is to finally have the time to squeeze in to study a new language. My English proficiency has allowed me to survive so far (aka getting employed) but as seen through my recent IELTS exam, I still have a lot to work on reading and writing (thus, le blog).


I have several friends though who are currently taking language classes, but I can't seem to put a finger as to which one I really want? There was a time I chose Chinese Mandarin for the sole purpose of business and not that hard to find someone to converse with? But as I did my Math, unless I really studied in a Chinese school, it would probably take me another lifetime to patch up reading, writing, and speaking all at the same time since they are offered as separate skills altogether (thus, making it more expensive).


Spanish seems practical? Closest we could probably have in our culture. I tried to mimic a couple of phrases... and I didn't fall in love with it. Mandarin, looked appropriate somehow to my chinky eyes. I could probably get away with it. Only that it sounded far too nasal for me to distinguish sounds at all?


*sigh*


I'm gonna try something else... 


With all my obsession with Lili, why not try French? :)




I already Googled as to where in Manila I could find authentic instructors that are somewhat affiliated by the French embassy.


... now I just have to earn the money?

Fighting my Demons

Quiet, would be an understatement. I have been literally trying to live under a rock for the past few months trying to focus as much as I can in performing well at work and aiming for that promotion. I am finally regularized in the company, with an excellent scorecard and attendance for February, everything should be running smoothly now... me thinks.


I have also tried several things to unclutter my life. 


1. Trim down my Facebook friends; avoid all friends' dramas from showing on my wall; clear my inbox; and oh, I hate that Timeline thing that you can never revert back.


2. Deleted all gay profiles, even the dummy ones. Seriously. So 18k views in a year + 60 or so raunchy comments from guys I slept with... I think it's time to give up the crown.


3. I finally stopped hoarding clothes and plushies which only collect dust and molds in the room. Some of them, I haven't even taken out of the plastic. I already gave away 25% of the stuff in my closet to charities and relief operations. 


4. I finally stopped hoarding products (e.g facial washes, body washes, lotions) and actually used them. One at a time. I noticed my skin wasn't as moist as it used to be since I changed products almost on a daily basis.


5. I chose to maintain only two numbers, one of which is only for business, but the other I don't load as often as I used to. In addition, I won't be buying a new celfone anytime soon.


6. I stopped hoarding pens and noteboooks, and actually started writing on them? Perhaps the desk calendar was the best stationery I invested. I can see on a daily basis how much I have accomplished, what is the nearest date I should look forward to etc.


7. I stopped hoarding food. I only buy what I can finish within 2-3 days and I do try to eat healthier now. 


8. I clean up more often. My room is spotless on most days. Gone is the clutter of clothes on the floor (and I actually know now where to find my stuff)


9. I have practiced on keeping my mouth shut. Though I am still quite prone to sudden bursts due to stress, there is nothing more stressful than damage control over something you have said or done which wasn't well thought of...


10. I have started to love myself more...

We will talk soon

It crushes me to think that you're punishing yourself for all this

and it's not even your fault.

We started off in a whirlwind. Jumped into romance.

I became ill.

Strike two for me.

It had been a part of my past.

I wouldn't want to get you further involved.

Let me deal with this.

Maybe I wasn't really ready for you?

I'm sorry for taking you with my mess.

Me and my messy room and sink.