Sunday, December 10, 2017

Minimalism

Maraming maaring matutunan sa internet, marami ding libre (tulad ng soft porn pics na almost every hour meron sa mga hubadero sa FB at IG), maraming bagong ideas.

Isa sa mga natuwa akong idea eh itong "minimalism." Ang idea nito eh to own as few things as possible, stick to the basics kumbaga. Pag tumingin pa lang ako sa condo unit namin ni Joms, mahirap humanap ng iisang bagay na wala kaming at least 3-10 versions nun. Promise. Siguro, nung una tinatawag kasing "collection" pero kapag sa sobrang dami na ang kalat na, nag-iipon ng alikabok, wala ka na mashadong magalawan dahil nasa sahig na din, sadyang nakaka-dagdag sa everyday stress.

Nagbawas na ako ng mga gamit. Namigay nako ng mga damit, bag, at sapatos, pinamigay ko na din yung extra toiletries, binenta ko na mga lumang gadgets etc. Ang problema ko naman, aba, free space. Si Joms naman ang nagtambak at gagawa daw siya ng "Funko POP wall".

OMG.

Kaya naman this year, since sa iisang buwan na din naman ang birthday nya at Pasko, next month eh anniversary namin, at by June babalik na siya sa school (college, second degree), binilhan ko na lang siya ng mas magagamit nya nang matagal. Nilinaw ko din na since mejo may kamahalan eh 24 mos ko lang din naman huhulugan sa credit card eh di ko na balak magbigay for the next 2 yrs LOL.

Minimalistic goal #1 Achieved : Bawasan ang pagreregalo sa boypren.

Sa pag-eexplore ko din sa minimalism, nabasa ko naman ang mga "Zero Waste lifestyles." Meron pa ngang isang girl na pinagmamalaki nya na lahat "daw" ng basura nya for the last 4 years fits in one mason jar.

Yeah right.

Meron naman akong mga nakuhang idea na mejo realistic naman sa Philippine setting. 

1. Meron na akong reusable water bottle sa bag
2. Meron na din akong reusable spoon, fork, chopsticks
3. Lagi na akong may dalang eco bag

Yun lang. LOL. Akala mo naman napaka life changing? But seriously, we all need to do a small part for the environment.

Ang hindi ko lang talaga masikmura eh yung ibang Zero waste practitioners eh mejo bumalik yata to the primitive ages? For example, yung isa, hindi na daw sila bumibili ng toilet paper. Ang ginagamit nila eh "family cloths." Okaaaay... I was like, sige teh, explain in great detail anu yun.

So bale yung mga basahan nila, mga blumang damit at retaso, they cut into squares, wipe their asses with it, place in a bucket and wash them all afterwards. Like eew?

Binababad naman daw nila sa suka or baking soda to control the smell ek ek but hello?

Hindi ko naman yata kayang compromise yung sanitation para lang sa "pagtitipid" which is sa totoo lang wala ka naman natipid kasi bibili ka pa din ng baking soda, suka, lalabhan mo pa so gagastos ka pa din.

Anyway, paano naman sa mga bottom tulad ko? Wala naman yatang eco-friendly condoms di ba?

Minimalistic goal #2 Achieved : Reduce trash whenever possible.

Kung yung unang dalawang bagay sa taas eh dala ng consumerism, meron din namang isang bagay na hindi naman binibili at all pero sadyang sobrang dami kung hindi mo alam paano mag-control.

What am I talking about? Drama.

Drama leads to fear. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to suffering. Suffering results to trips to the spa, binge eating, and retail therapy which is bad for my credit card and for the environment.

Every year towards the end of the year, alaga ko na magbawas ng tao sa FB ko. Sinasadya ko na as much as possible, less than 1000 lang ang nasa list ko.

Pinaka kinaiinisan ko sa lahat eh yung:

1. Yung mga nagpopost ng mga LQ / away nila sa personal na pahabaan ng comment na all caps and shit
2. Yung mga mahihilig na lang mambash ng mga tao na taliwas sa paniniwala nila sa religion and politics
3. Yung mga madalas mag post ng status nila na "single" then later papalitan na naman na "in a relationship with" tapus bumilang ka ng ilang weeks break na din sila. Punyeta

3.1 Same people na hihingi ng advice about their relationships pero di rin naman makikinig kasi di mabitiwan ang malaking etits ng X nya. Gawd.

I mean, ok, people have their down moments pero kung sadyang napaka toxic na ng posts mo na pumapasok sa feeds ko eh:

1. I will unfollow na lang muna pero checking occassionally
2. Unfriend
3. Block forever

Minimalistic goal #3 Achieved : Avoid drama in my life as much as possible.

I therefore conclude, hindi lang naman puro material na bagay ang dapat bawasan sa life. Minsan tao din, minsan drama din, para tayo ay maging masaya.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Stalking Thoughts: Enemies

OK. So ang sabi ko nga eh magsusulat na ako ulit.

Magsusulat lang talaga ako tulad ng kung paano ko siguro ikukwento kung kaharap ko kayong nagbabasa nito.

Yes, may pagka-stalker po ang inyong lingkod at isa sa mga taong lagi kong sinusundan eh yung mga taong ... hindi ko gusto/ hindi ko pa mapatawad until now/ yung mga sumalbahe sa akin.

Ang hirap kasi para sa akin na mapatawad yung isang tao na gumawa nang masama sa sayo, at wala ka naman talagang maaasahang hihingi siya ng sorry o baka kahit minsan eh marealize nya na mali yung ginawa nya, kahit anu pa man ang naging rason nya o motivation nya noon.

Aaminin ko na sa sobrang sama ng loob ko, isa sa mga rason kaya ko sila iniii-stalk eh gusto kong makita ko deads na ba sila or not (sorry naman ang morbid lang). Saka gusto ko lang malaman kung effective nya ba yung binigay sa aking Death Note. LOL

Andun ang lahat nng morbid details na hindi ko na i-dedescribe pa sa blog post na ito hehehe.

Pero teka lang, hindi naman ako yung tipong umaaligid sa bahay or opisina nila. No, puro online stalking lang naman ako. Kung hindi ka mashadong particular sa privacy settings mo sa FB, most likely nakita ko na lahat. Yung partner nila, anak nila, plate number ng sasakyan nila (na secretly gusto kong makita at gasgasan ng susi ng very light.)

Isa din sa mga inaalam ko, kung nasaan na sila ngayun at kung anu ang current na company o career nila. Iniisip ko lang din, gagawin ko lahat ng makakaya ko na iwasan na makatrabaho o makasama sila ulit sa iisang lugar. Pangalawa siguro, kung sakali man na nauna ako sa company at bigla silang nakapasok din at di maiiwasan na magkatrabaho kami. Gusto ko lang din na masiguro na mas mataas ang position ko para naman pwede ko na lang siyang utusan na magpaphotocopy para sa akin? 

Siguro iniisip mo ngayun, ang bitter ko naman. Ang babaw ko naman. Move on na! Matagal na din siguro yun baka nagbago na sila (well, sinimulan ko nung highschool until present time).

Pero hindi eh. Ganun na nga lang din ba yun? Yung kung anung masamang ginawa nila, yung pamamahiya o pananabotahe, papalampasin ko na lang?

Siguro may kaunting galit din ako sa sarili ko. Hindi ako naging matalino at matapang, minsan naging malakas para ipagtanggol ko yung sarili ko. Lumaban sana ako.

Anu ang gagawin ko all this time? Umasa na lang sa karma? Sa prayers? 

Kahit ang mga kaaway mo, anak din sila ng Diyos. Marunong din silang magdasal. Sinu ka ba naman para ikaw lang ang papakinggan Niya di ba?

Ang pinaka recent siguro, si Mark. 

Oo, masama loob ko sa kanya noon, kaya nga sinimulan ko itong madramang blog noon. Pero ngayun, masaya na ako eh? Siguro mas ok ako na makitang mas naging masaya at makabuluhan ang naging buhay ko pagkatapus namin tapusin yung relasyon namin.

Pero paano nga ba ang gagawin ko dun sa mga taong hindi ko nagawang kumprontahin?

Gusto kong malaman paano ako magiging ok...

Sunday, November 19, 2017

So anu na ito puro na lang ba ako hello?

How exciting.

Here I am on a weekend, in front of a computer, just like the typical 40 hours I spend in the office. 

Ewan ko ba. I am really a tactile person na kapag magsusulat ako mas feel ko yung keyboard kaysa gamitin yung nasa screen.

So in a previous post (di ko na din matandaan alin o kailan) naghahanap ako ng content na susundan. Para bang nakulangan na kasi ako ng mga bagong kwento. Facebook. Super daming ads, super daming cute animals, super convenient na soft porn delivered to your feed, super daming topics, name it. Pati yung "Titos of Manila" mashado na nabombard ang notifications ko in-off ko na notifications at unfollow. Nyeta.

Ganun talaga. You get what you want Seth. You asked for it.

Gusto ko na magbalik loob sa blogging. Hindi yung tipo ng blogging ngayun na pinagkakakitaan nang husto. Yung laging may new content. 

Mas maganda, mas special yung may reason talaga para magsulat. Inspired. Hindi pressured na kailangan may mamaintain na traffic.

Hindi naman ako special sumulat at hindi rin naman ako super husay na blogger. It is just that "influencers," ang tawag sa kanila sa social media, kasindami nila ang sampung pisong mani.

In fairness, mabenta pa din yung post ko tungkol sa bathhouse LOL. May mga nag-iiwan pa ng number. May mga pic at video sa twitter. Yung iba nagbibigay pa ng location as in sobrang lapit na lang sa akin feeling ko baka magkapitbahay na kami? hahaha

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Remake

A lot of people asked me what I thought about the new Beauty and the Beast movie. My answer was "I watched it online, a movie copy, I got bored after 42 minutes and decided not to finish it."

Beauty and the Beast was my favorite Disney movie of all time. I probably watched it hundreds of times I've practically memorized the script. I was initially excited upon seeing the trailer and the poster... until I watched the teaser of Belle (Little town).

Emma Watson couldn't possibly dropped her British accent and this is supposed to be a French village. I didn't mind the singing either. 

It was this particular scene that disappointed me. You see, Belle in the animation movie was dreamy and she lit up when someone asked her about her book. In the live action movie, she looked just as bored as the rest of the town.

I was expecting more in the live action since this is already a real actor! Unlike animation, the animator has to first draw the scenes, making sure to capture the emotions and the mouth opening. Second, the voice talent would then need to watch the movie and try to adjust to the emotions and the mouth movements.

I just feel that Emma could've done a lot better.




I didn't make it far enough during the first 42 minutes to make it to the library scene but when I heard that didn't go too well either, it is already a deal breaker for me.

Something tells me, soon they will be remaking the Little Mermaid as well.

I wonder how they can execute "Part of your World" convincing enough?

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Uh oh hello

Oh hi. Yeah, I'm back. And this time hopefully I'd stay a little longer.

I feel like I have to explain my disappearance though wala naman talagang malalim na dahilan. It was simply because, I got bored.

I had this yearning to make a connection, to belong, I was looking for that content or passion or whatever to make me feel excited and escape from all the monotony of daily work. Luckily, I managed to find a company where I stayed longer than a year. Achievement yun ha? Prior to that I always had to come across one version of kupal after another that would drain my energy and zest for life that I would rather resign than drag myself to work.

For the longest time I have been enjoying an almost permanent shift with weekends off. Forever. 

Petiks na work, minus the kupaloids with almost double the pay I was earning before. If that isn't fucking awesome I don't know what is.

And yet here I am. I managed to retire from the chained office laptop and here at home, hurray! I'm in front of the computer again and on the internet. How fun.

If there was anything I enjoyed the most of out my job was that now I can afford to travel more often. Pangatlong balik ko na sa Japan this coming August and Cebu sa November. Nakapasyal na din ako sa Iloilo, Bohol, nth time sa Boracay and Baguio.

Bongga di ba? Di na ako poorita :)

May bago din akong hobby... building Gundam. Pakk! Ang macho pakinggan pero honestly parang manicure-pedicure lang ang principles applied to a plastic err robot.

So bakit pa ako nagbalik sa blog? Anjan naman ang Facebook.

Napaka ingay ng Facebook. Sure anjan lahat ng content. Videos, advertisements, articles etc. Hindi ko na nga kailangan bumisita sa porn websites? Andami na hubadero na pwedeng i-follow and maya't maya magselfie delivered straight to my feed. How convenient.

For some time sumawsaw na din ako sa political topics and issues of national concern. Punyeta. Lalong magulo. Minsan hindi ko na alam paano i-process ang lahat naii-stress lang ako lalo. Eventually, kebs na. Hindi ko na sinundan ang mga bagay bagay. Hayaan ko na lahat ng political pundits at ang kung anu mang agenda nila sa buhay ang gusto nilang ipaglaban. 

Bumalik na lang ako sa aking bubble of comfort ng cute animals and hunky boys. Nakaka happy pa sila.

Anyway, I'll try to backread on the things I have missed.

Kahit minsan parang nakakatuwa yung mga likes and shares, nakakamiss din pala yung aabangan mo in a few hours, at the end of the day kung may nagbasa ng entry mo, kung may nagcomment. Inaabangan mo kung anu din ang ganap sa life ng ibang bloggers, how they see the world. Their world.

I missed writing too.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Hear ye hear ye

WHAT : Well I was thinking of setting up a mini gathering for bloggers and readers (aka EB or eyeball; OMG uso pa ba yung term na yun ngayun?)

WHY : Nothing really close to saving the world but of all the bloggers I have subscribed to like I only get updates like every 3 or so months. (What has social media done to us!?)

WHEN : TBD

WHERE : QC area. Maginhawa or Tomas Morato

WHO : I have asked Sepsep and Vic Saudad, both have expressed interest

Vic wants to bring along Mamon...

then why not invite as many people as we can! ^__________^

WHERE ULIT : I am considering a spacious venue with free flowing food and drinks (para isang bayad na lang and malakas naman talaga akong kumain)



What do you guys think?


Friday, December 4, 2015

Iloilo

He spoke about it before with a sparkle in his eye and it never waned. I know he wanted it. Badly.


The company will be expanding in the southern city and being a member of the training department will eventually require expansion and/or relocation.

My condition was very simple. If you go there, we'll break up. Period.

I am not being a jerk. I know what it would mean to his career. Heck, the place is even a stone throw away from Boracay so you could practically be in party paradise every weekend?

We talked about it before. I even jokingly said, his manager would have to arrange a meeting with me and the dogs. I am keeping the dogs by the way.

But then the real issue would be I am anticipating he will slip sooner or later. I would rather not be complacent with this matter. You know, it did happen recently right under my nose and I thought everything was going smoothly.

So I said to him, while still in bed:

"I am going to tell you how I think... I don't really wish to hamper your career growth. I know it will be exciting to pioneer something in a new place. But then, place into perspective ... the Patrick incident.

At a time when,
I thought all is well
We made love every now and then
We eat and sleep together
I kiss you when I leave and arrive from work
We go out on weekends

... and then a Patrick was hidden all along in between those times we were together.

So how can I be so sure this time that I would be miles away?

I'm sure you'll be meeting someone there. You will have needs. We can't afford flying to and from Manila every weekend, that would be quite exhausting as well."

Joms only replied: "I understand and I thought you already trusted me."


He got up from bed and prepped for work.


I never replied to that but in my head "I would rather not risk it. You haven't been to that kind of situation for me to have confidence you can endure. Besides, this is your first time in a same sex relationship, the longest even to date."


I have seen myself miserable before.

I have seen myself breakdown in sorrow and disappointment.

Why take a risk of getting hurt again when I can just let go now?




Self preservation.





I managed to be alone before. I can do it again. I would rather not be miserable and hurting.

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Bury the hatchet

It was supposed to be just a normal shift at work and my Facebook stays open through my phone...

... until one peculiar notification...

"Mark followed you at 10:01 PM"

WTF. Anu na naming kalokohan ito!? Teka meron bang something special sa September 15? Parang wala naman... ah yeah. Reference nga pala naming ang 15th bilang "monthsary." First time din naming ginawa sa kwarto ko noon sa Cainta nung 19th birthday ko.

Oh well.

Sakto, online din ang true friend nyang si Gladys. Chinat ko.

Seth: finollow ako ni Mark sa Facebook. Anu meron? hehehe. Nakaprivate naman profile ko, wala siyang makikitang posts or pictures unless nakapublic. Kamusta na sya ngayun?

Gladys: Ha? Uy bago yan ah. No idea din ako why. Wala naman siyang nabanggit sakin. Busy sa duty nya bilang Anes. Kamusta ka? One month na lang... Happy Birthday to you na !!!

Seth: I knerr hihihi. Teka, bakit bigla nya akong naisip? Ilang beses na kami nagkasalubong sa Wensha na kasama ko bf ko now. Lagi naman siyang mag-isa. Tanguan lang. Di naman kami nag-uusap. hehehe

Gladys: Ay na mention nya sakin yon. Maybe nasagi ka sa isip nya...

Seth: kesheh? Are we ready to be friends again? (after 6 years) Echos!

Gladys: Maybe that's why... at least masave ang friendship...

Seth: Hmmm... whatevs. I-add ko na ba si kuya? Mukha siyang malungkot actually everytime nagkikita kami. I was kinda hoping nakahanap na siya ng bago by now.


to be continued...

Saturday, August 1, 2015

These dreams

I am the kind of person who barely remembers dreams. I learned in school then that dreams are somewhat fragments of our subconscious thoughts and realities that arise when we sleep.

The First.

Joms and I once visited his hometown in Nueva Ecija. It was a quaint and peaceful town and probably the only fun I got was riding a rusty old roller coaster from the perya at the time. One night back in Manila, Joms woke up crying. He cried so bad I woke up to see what upset him and he told me of a dream. He said he pictured the time when we did rode the roller coaster and for some reason during one of the last and fastest revolutions, I got thrown out of my seat and my body couldn't be found. He was relieved I was there when he woke up. He said he couldn't imagine his life without me.

The Second.

...then there's You. You whom I haven't really talked about at all in my blog. I have pretty much talked about most of the guys I was in a relationship with and dated except You. 

I still see You in my dreams sometimes. The only last glimpse I saw was when you joined this other blogger's trip to Baguio. I've been there more than 10 times. I am glad you finally took a shot at travelling. I couldn't tell if you were having a good time with your company.

The Third.

I miss Japan. How I wish I could've stayed much longer. I will definitely be back next year if not sooner.

The Fourth.

I couldn't remember if I went to bed upset. In this sequence I was in an argument with Joms. He disappeared for a long time and for some reason I was living comfortably and he suddenly came back.

Joms : "Why didn't you look for me? Did you even try?"

I was unable to provide an answer. 

This time I woke up in tears and felt relieved Joms was just sleeping beside me.


The Fifth.

You see, I haven't been totally honest with You. 

I was actually sleeping around probably during our second to third month and that was when I met Joms.

I wasn't really sure if I was thinking straight at the time. I only liked a single entry from You. I kept it. It was my ideal day. My dream day. You pictured it out so vividly I could almost taste it.

So when the time came when we started chatting via Skype and I've shown you my face I could tell you were pretty much turned on and you were shirtless as well. I asked, no, demanded You to come to my condo unit and fuck me. I was probably very firm for You took a taxi within an hour and we were in between the sheets. You were smaller in height but rather compensated in size. I can still remember carrying you and pinning you to the wall while we kissed and I straddled you like crazy you didn't last very long.

The lust had faded and I am vulnerable. You have a way with words and I was lonely for the longest time. Besides, you painted the best day one could ever have. Just like that we became a couple without much after thought. I haven't really gotten to know each other. I was much older as well. I decided to try it out anyway.

First few days were fun. You told me people at work and his family suddenly saw the change in his aura. He was happy. I was happy. For a time that is. I still had to convince myself someone so small and frail could possibly keep up with me.

Then one small thing ticked me off.

At the heat of the moment You asked me to "bottom" him. I know. Am I not the legendary power bottom and now I have to relinquish my crown? I didn't mind at the time. I sometimes ask when I feel like it but it is almost rare when I do. I did my part. You seemed to have changed from being the small but rough top to the frail and dainty bottom... I felt powerful.

After tryst, You got up, went through my pile of clothes and picked up a long sleeved shirt of mine and put it on. 

"I've always dreamed of wearing a boyfriend shirt...."

at that moment, I died.

There can't be two princesses in my castle. I made a mistake.

I had to recharge my bottom prowess. I had to find more dominant tops to reassure myself. It was convenient. I own the place. I dictated the time when we could meet. My rules.

... one of the guys I was fooling around was Joms, who happened to live just a few blocks away. How convenient. He seemed to be the perfect top. He also expressed genuine interest in something more than fuck buddies and we started dating as well.

I reduced the days with You until eventually he got the idea I was no longer interested. It seemed Joms would be a more practical choice. Someone who could keep up with me. I needed more brawn and muscle and the sexual appetite of a genuine top.

I planned on how to break up with You.

And just when I thought I could make things seamless. I tried to ensure that neither one would know the other, they did...

It was customary to write on the lobby guard log book before entering the premises. I've invited You to tell it to him in person. I asked him to come in the first day in the morning of my day off. I can tell he was expecting it. He couldn't do anything. I stopped wanting him.

I just gave a lame alibi. It didn't change the fact I also felt differently between us now. I had to end things sooner or later.

Later that night, I asked Joms to come and visit. He cleverly befriended the guards they seem to make them think he already lives with me here. However, at that time he decided to check the logbook that day. 

I had a visitor.

He knocked on my door in tears wanting to understand why I had a visitor and I promised to not invite strangers anymore.

Now I had to tell the truth about You.

I was free now. Joms and I worked on getting to know each other better.


***

July 28th, almost a month after discovering about a certain Patrick. I was ambivalent whether Joms and I should still celebrate our usual monthsary.

Seth :  "I don't know if we should. I wonder if there is another date you had in mind, something related to your memories with Patrick that I didn't know of. Things seemed to go back to normal but every once in a while I never relaxed. Maybe we just managed to survive. No reason to spend a fortune on a lunch buffet." 

Joms :  "Weren't you genuinely happy these past few weeks? I made you laugh and smile didn't I? Were you only half hearted then?"

Seth :  "Perhaps. I am still unsure how to think about it. I just take things one day at a time. It still crosses my mind."


***

The Sixth.

I woke up from a dream now with clarity in mind. I finally knew what I wanted.

I was drawn back in time and in my dream, I was unable to manage and prevent Joms and You from learning about one another and meeting each other. It was messed up. Messy messy messy. I had to explain one lie after another as it had gotten so complicated.

In the end however, I didn't end up with either of them. The future changed.

I wondered what it might be like if I never stayed with Joms? I might be in a completely different person. I might be in another job in yet another company. I might not have been able to have dogs at all?

I couldn't handle the drama and I woke up. This time I wasn't crying.

I opened my eyes and Joms was sleeping beside me. I told him about the dream. I told him I finally made up my mind.

Despite what happened, I want to make it work. It will be hard to forget but then it would also be harder to go back into the dating scene. I'd rather not go through that kind of shit again.

I did make it very clear though.

I find it unacceptable that I shared my history and then he'd give me his version of it and hurt me. I understand he may not have as much experience in gay relationships as I do. I wouldn't want to see the same treatment, the same sweet nothings being said to another person other than me.


"Sa susunod na may mahuli pa akong ibang guy... ibuburol kayung naka couple outfit."




And I haven't dreamed ever since.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Walang forever

I have been very quiet these past few months. I have been busy with work primarily and during my free time I would really rather to detach from the world and sleep. Everything just seemed right: the usual stress from commuting and work, spending days with Joms, movies and dining out.

Joms works as a Trainer somewhere in QC. For the last three years that we have been together, I have never really questioned his loyalty. I am very much aware how we started. He was the one who wanted to change what we are and worked hard to prove that he is trustworthy. We worked on that trust part. I spilled all the dirty deeds and secrets together with my hopes and dreams. Here again is my broken heart. Please don't make a burger out of it.

Just when I thought I've done everything right and I am the happiest point in my life compared to all my previous relationships... this happened.

Siguro dapat nilinaw ko talaga muna ang lahat.

Minsan tinanung ko si Joms:


Seth: Bakit mo ako mahal?

Joms: Kasi nagkaron tayu ng spark. Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit at ayaw ko na malaman kasi kapag ganun baka magbago isip ko or something.

Tumigil na ako noon.

Honestly I didn't see it coming.









What I did notice was that:

He suddenly became "happier"
There was always a reason to stay longer in the office
He always hanged out with this "Wave" that was the coolest he met (according to him)
They have this group chat on Viber and his phone keeps on beeping

I sensed something weird but I usually let it pass. I never checked his phone or messages. I never had the reason to.

However, this bond seemed to excessive between a Trainer and his class.

And so one day after coming home from work, I saw him in bed asleep and decided to check his phone once and for all. Yes there was a group chat. Until I checked this private conversation with a guy named Patrick.

My heart died with every scroll on the message thread.


I remembered him saying: "We have this two people that we teased until they finally admitted they liked each other..."

Little did I know he was referring to himself.

I took photos. Sent them to several people. Confronted him.

He didn't think I was serious. "Wala lang daw yun"

Until I told him I read the private chat he had with all the sweet nothings, the memories, and the agreement to wear a couple outfit.



Seth is sad.

and is still sad until now...

Monday, April 27, 2015

Throwback Monday : PR edition

1. Multivitamins (#8767426) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 11:19]
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Maganda ka sa likod tol, puede masilip ang taglay mong kagandahan.


2. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 11:22]
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hahaha

kaw walang pic


3. Multivitamins (#8767426) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 13:27]
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Hahaha wala nga akong pic pro ako naman ang best catch sa site na ito.


4. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 13:28]
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naks! ikaw na! hehehe


5. Multivitamins (#8767426) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 14:40]
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Cp no? Meet you tonight


6. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 14:41]
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got work at 10pm-7am i can only play during daytime


7. Multivitamins (#8767426) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 15:28]
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Ok, your loss, 8 inch long here, 2 inch ang lapad at gasantol ang bitlog



8. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 15:30]
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awww maybe next time.

baka di ko rin kayanin ganyan kalaki

thanks for your consideration


9. Multivitamins (#8767426) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 15:32]
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Ok bye, now or never. @ md/ceo guapo guy here, ciao.


10. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [13. Sep. 2011 - 15:33]
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TC :)


******


1. good-friend (#3997885) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:23]
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We got a looooong weekend ahead of us. That means you might have a lot
of free time. Ride me, will 'ya?


2. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:24]
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lemme see what ya got


3. good-friend (#3997885) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:25]
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6.5"
Good girth


4. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:27]
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cool

face or body pics?


5. good-friend (#3997885) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:29]
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Lemme see yours, too.


6. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:30]
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hmm not your best pic yet


7. good-friend (#3997885) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:33]
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Yeah. Well, cameras have never been good to me.


8. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [26. Aug. 2011 - 23:35]
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youre in a cocktail party looking.... constipated? hehehe

well maybe we can make you orgasmic


number?


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1. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 01:51]
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parang gusto ko din mag comment sa guest list mo brod ah. marc here.
power top. san ka sa qc?


2. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:24]
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proj 3


3. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:25]
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what time later?


4. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:27]
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huh? may lakad ako eh


5. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:27]
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allright. kelan ba pwede?


6. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:29]
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hehe may pila kasi kaw ba kelan ka usually free?

game ka sa 3somes?

number mo?


7. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:31]
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sure. yours?


8. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:32]
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san ka banda sa project 3 brod?


9. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:32]
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dick size mo?


10. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:33]
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 st


11. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:33]
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weekends free ako starting friday midnight....


12. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:34]
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6 inches but energized and powerful


13. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:35]
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hahaha hanep sa adjectives

panindigan mo yan ha, powerbot ako


14. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:35]
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kelan?


15. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:37]
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hahaha then meet the powertop


16. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:38]
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we'll see about that


17. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:38]
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when?


18. Lightbolt (#8160439) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:39]
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sabihan kita


19. marcovallerosa (#6682810) - [20. Aug. 2011 - 04:41]
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hope this weekend...

Saturday, April 4, 2015

The bottom who cried for justice

I am the kind of person who lives in a bubble. As much as possible I intentionally avoid listening to news and reading the paper as I easily get tired of the same violence and injustice happening in the world. However, these kinds of things still manage to permeate my bubble as I use social media.

So far, there had been two people that somehow piqued my interest : Jamich and Justin aka "the boy who cried books."

For the former, honestly I haven't seen or tried to watch their videos. They became popular under my nose and here is yet another couple with combined names. I wouldn't have been interested at all until I saw a "proposal video" done by Mich in the middle of a program by Bo Sanchez. What made it even more interesting was that Jam, was recently diagnosed with lung cancer. I almost got convinced.

This was until I saw and heard about #iponparasaiphone wherein at the time, the iP6 was supposedly priced at 100k. What made it worse was that people actually donated and some sold their humble units to contribute money... and this is what they see? After a week later, they released a statement wherein "money has never been an issue." Insensitive pricks.

My friend Dan, also died of cancer early February. He looked so different from what I remembered. He hid from us during the entire ordeal. Yet, here is a couple smothering us with photos and videos and tweets of every minute detail of their lives. 

Eventually, the inevitable happened and Jam died. However, Mich couldn't even pretend to be a grieving "fiancee." Then I recalled, why didn't they ever get married? Wasn't there a couple in UP PGH where they arranged for a wedding and the husband died the same day? Then here comes Mich with a new "flame" barely a month after Jam's death. Some even postulated the affair had been going on long before. 

Famewhoring. 

Here comes the second dude "the boy who cried books." 

At first, ok... what's up with that. Until I read a Rappler article about him and found him more worthy of attention. So much attention that celebrities also joined in the bandwagon. It was until one night when I (thought) I saw him at Wensha Timog.

I was like whuuuuuut?! Not that he doesn't deserve to be there or anything but after learning so much about you and your aspirations you have money to spend on a spa? I decided to confront a "fan," a former officemate and still good friend named Carlo.

  • Seth
    I wasn't able to take or ask for his photo. I think i just saw "the boy who cried books" here at Wensha Timog.
  • Monday
  • Ay sayang!
  • Tuesday
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    Pero akala ko ba poor at homeless sya?
  • Tuesday
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carl
    Ay no haha lumayas siya
  • Tuesday
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    Yun nga pero bakit nasa kalsada and nakapambahay
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    Nagbebenta siya ng books nagiipon for his tuition
    His mom "disowned" him daw and is no longer supporting him
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    I heard that story. Pero bakit sya nasa wensha? If ever sha nga yun. How is this any different from jamich pretending to be a grieving fiancee and just basking in the limelight
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    Sana tinanong mo kung siya nga lol
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    Yun lang. Pero if that was him. Will that change your perception of him?
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    Kung siya nga, baka may nanlibre or something
    Hindi lol
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    Im puzzled. Kasi sa akin, seeing a striving lawyer in a place quite expensive for his ordeal is kinda contradicting
    Yung context ba. It feels fake na tuloy for me.
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    Sa FB page madaming nagrereach out to him. Maybe nilibre siya
    He's never put on an image naman na aping api siya
    He never said he's poor. Moneyless, yes, kasi nga he's no longer being supported
    So he's finding ways which led him to meet groups of people who are willing to help him or treat him out. Naging sort of "celeb"
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    But u do get what i mean. Parang yung jamich lang din na people donated money for his chemo then itong si kuya may hirit na ipon para sa iphone. Then they become defensive na money is not an issue.
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    Hehe I don't see it that way
    Kasi yung libre iba naman yun
    Well kung nilibre nga siya
    We don't know naman what the real story is
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    Ok. Benefit of the doubt na lang talaga
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    True. I don't see him kasi as namamalimos or kapos na kapos
    Just someone who's temporarily making ends meet by selling books
    Pero for sensationalism the media is portraying him as such
  • Josh Asistin
    Seth
    Kasi ito lang. So he has been bookish and all ever since pero he never achieved that fame and sympathy if he didnt end up on the streets. Filipinos tend to relate to an underdog kasi. Pero to which he's not. Ang packaging kasi sa kanya now eh parang aahon sa kahrapan thingy
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo
    Yun na nga. But that's not his fault. He's always been transparent on his FB posts.
    Nakakasama niya pa sila Alessandra de Rossi lol
  • Josh Asistin
    Josh Asistin
    Sabagay. Marami lang nakikiride on dito
    Even yung nabalitang super summa cum laude ng UP noon. Di naman daw tshirt jeans saka tsinelas suot nya on a daily basis. Naka poloshirt and all. Presentable pero media wanted to play the angle "isko ng bayan"
  • Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Carlo Rioflorido Yap
    Mahilig kasi magsensationalize media kaya we need to be discerning
    Parang yung pinortray ni Angel Locsin dati sa MMK na nabaliw

Moral of the story? 

Do not believe everything on the internet.